Dismal Day in Kansas

It has been pouring down rain all day, and the rain turns to ice on everything... My car had 1/2" of ice all over it to be chipped away before I could come him from work at 1:30. They say it's supposed to be worse tomorrow!! *sigh* I really long for the 110 degree days of August, and the smell of baked wheat stubble and dusty roads... If you have ever been to Kansas in the summer time, surely you know the smell I'm talking about... I have always wanted to bottle that smell to open in January, or February when winter has got me down... I am NOT a winter person... I'm not a summer person as in lots of outdoor activities, and sunbathing, and swimming and all that.. I am just cold blooded, and love the hot days...

Haven't talked to Jeff since I sent him some information on D/s yesterday. He knows more than your average vanilla guy, but I wanted to know that he knew what I meant, personally, when I said D/s... Everyone in the lifestyle has their own interpretation... And I gave him the link to this blog, which in itself made me incredibly nervous... But I wanted him to know that I trust him enough to share my innermost thoughts and feelings with him... Sharing with everyone out in "cyberland" is much different that sharing with someone you know in "real life". Especially when it is someone that you love dearly... He may not have even had time to check his email, they keep him so busy at the hospital.. Especially in weather like this, since he works the ER, there are bound to be lots of accidents... Maybe I will page him and see if he has time to talk... And if he has read his email...

I think in a way I was testing him with those emails yesterday... To see what he will do with the information, how he will react... See if it chases him away... See how serious he is... I love him, and don't want to lose him, but losing him now would be better than a year from now... Am I looking at this the wrong way??